Actif Epica 2024: An Adventure Without Snow - Part 2
Part 2: Getting Skinny
Recap: From Pandemic Sloth to Midlife Reinvention: Chasing Adventure and Overcoming Self-Doubt Through Bikepacking and Winter Bike Racing.
As the pandemic disrupted routines and supply chains alike, I found myself reflecting on life and the adventures I’d been putting off. Like many, I’d gained weight and lost fitness during lockdown, but as the world reopened, I felt a growing urgency to reclaim my health and chase new challenges—especially as I approached my 60s. This wasn’t about a midlife crisis; it was about reinvention. Inspired by the Tour Divide, a grueling 2,700-mile bikepacking race, and Actif Epica, a winter endurance event, I decided to push my limits. With encouragement from a ride buddy, I signed up for Actif Epica, despite my self-doubt, and began preparing for 50 kilometers of icy, snowy terrain. The journey wasn’t easy—ordering a fat bike during a global supply chain crisis tested my patience, and my wheelset was delayed in transit. This is Part 2 of a three-part blog post, and while the race is still ahead, the lessons are already piling up. Thanks for reading, and remember: it’s never too late to chase your next adventure.
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Days
before the race, I still didn’t have a snow bike. What I did have, however, was
ambition—and the warmest winter in recent memory on my side. The forecast
called for unseasonably mild temperatures, which meant the frozen roads I’d
been counting on would likely turn into a sloppy, impassable mess of mud. Joy.
The
warm weather added another layer of complexity. What should have been a crisp,
snowy racecourse now had the potential to become a muddy slog. The frozen
gravel roads I’d imagined were at risk of turning into a quagmire, and the
thought of grinding through miles of slop was equal parts daunting and
absurd—especially when you consider this was February in one of the coldest
places on Earth.
At
first, the thought of tackling a winter race without a fat bike felt like a
recipe for disaster. Fat bikes, with their ultra-wide tires, are built to float
over snow and, when studded, glide effortlessly across icy terrain. They’re the
undisputed champions of winter riding, capable of conquering conditions that
would stop most bikes before they could make any tracks. But mud? Mud is a
different beast entirely.
Mud
doesn’t just slow you down—it clings to everything. It wraps itself around your
tires, turning them into useless, caked-up donuts that refuse to roll. It jams
itself into every crevice of your frame, drivetrain, and brakes, sapping every
ounce of momentum and leaving you grinding to a halt. And the bigger the tire,
the more mud it collects. Fat bikes, with their massive, balloon-like tires,
are practically mud magnets. In those conditions, a fat bike isn’t just
overkill—it’s the worst possible choice.
I’d
seen it happen before: riders on fat bikes grinding to a halt on muddy trails,
their tires so caked with muck that they could barely spin. They’d stop every
few minutes to scrape away the buildup, only to have it clump back on within
seconds. It was a losing battle— one I wasn’t eager to fight. But here’s the
thing: there’s always a solution if you’re willing to think outside the box and
adapt.
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| Gravel Bike |
So,
I made the call: no fat bike. Instead, I'd get skinny and rely on my gravel bike, with its
narrower tires and more streamlined design. It wasn’t the obvious choice, but
it felt like the right tool for the job. I swapped out my tires for something
narrower and less aggressive, knowing that wider treads would only act as mud
magnets. Then, I packed my secret weapon: a ‘mud stick.’ For the uninitiated, a
mud stick is exactly what it sounds like—a humble paint stick, repurposed as a
gravel bike essential. It’s a simple, no-frills tool designed to scrape away
the layers of mud and debris that inevitably clog your frame, tires, and
drivetrain.
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| Tire Swap |
There’s
something oddly satisfying about the ritual of stopping mid-ride, pulling out
your trusty paint stick, and clearing away the muck to keep rolling. It’s not
glamorous, but it’s effective—a small act of defiance against the relentless
grip of Manitoba mud. Sometimes, the simplest solutions are the most brilliant.
With
my gravel bike prepped, my trusty mud stick at the ready, and my mindset
shifted from “ideal” to “adaptable,” I mentally prepared for a long,
hard-fought day in the saddle. The race might not have been what I’d originally
envisioned, but it was shaping up to be an adventure … without snow.
The
Race: A Comedy of Errors
I
lined up at the start, surrounded by fat bike veterans and ultra-distance
enthusiasts, ready to do my worst on a gravel bike despite my lingering
misgivings. Sure, I didn’t have the widest tires or the most specialized gear,
but I had something that mattered just as much: a willingness to push myself
with what I had and a determination to see how far I could go. I wasn’t the
most equipped, but I was ready to give it everything I had.
| Actif Epica 50K Start |
Endurance
racing isn’t just about physical strength or having the perfect equipment—it’s
about pushing yourself to the edge of what you think is possible and finding
out what you’re made of. It’s about confronting discomfort, doubt, and fatigue
head-on and refusing to back down. It’s about discovering reserves of grit and
determination you didn’t know you had.
As
I stood at the starting line, I couldn’t help but feel a mix of nerves and
excitement. The fat bike riders around me looked like they were built for the
terrain, their wide tires ready to float over snow and mud. My gravel bike,
with its narrower tires and sleeker frame, felt like the underdog in
comparison. But that only fueled my determination. I wasn’t just racing against
the other riders or the clock—I was racing against myself. I wanted to see how
far I could push my limits, how much I could endure, and how creatively I could
adapt to the challenges ahead.
Additionally,
ultra-distance bikepacking is as much a test of navigation as it is of your
determination. Races must rely on GPS devices, traditional maps, or race
director-provided *cue sheets* to chart their course through remote, unmarked
terrain. Unlike traditional races with clear signage and support crews,
bikepacking routes demand complete self-sufficiency, forcing riders to make
split-second decisions about the best path forward. A single wrong turn can
mean miles of backtracking or hours lost in the wilderness, making sharp
navigation skills as essential as physical stamina. Whether it’s following a
digital breadcrumb trail on a GPS unit, deciphering contour lines on a paper
map, or meticulously checking off cues on a sheet, the ability to navigate
effectively is what keeps racers on track—both literally and figuratively—as
they push through the grueling physical and mental challenges of the journey.
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| Actif Epica 50k Cue Sheet |
Actif
Epica, however, stands apart from other winter bike races. It’s exceptionally
well-marked, with cue sheets, GPS maps, and periodic course markers for each
distance. According to the race website, “With a return to the Crow Wing Trail
this year, the race route consists of gravel & dirt roads, trail, and
pavement going into and out of towns along the route.” After check-in, racers
gather outside the iconic Sugar Shack, which serves as both the start and
finish line for the event. It’s a rare blend of rugged adventure and thoughtful
organization, making it a unique challenge in the world of winter endurance
racing.
I’ve
had the incredible opportunity to ride and race along the Crow Wing Trail, a
journey that’s as rich in history as it is in natural beauty. But before diving
into the trail’s story, it’s important to acknowledge that this path winds
through Treaty 1 land, the traditional territory of the Anishinaabe, Cree,
Oji-Cree, Dakota, and Dene peoples, and the homeland of the Métis Nation. By
reflecting on the harms and mistakes of the past and deepening our
understanding of the lands we explore, work, and live on, we can take
meaningful steps toward truth, reconciliation, and collaboration.
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| Crow Wing Trail Map |
The
Crow Wing Trail itself is a living connection to history. Stretching 193
kilometers from the U.S. border in Emerson to the Canadian city of Winnipeg, it
traces the route of the historic ox-cart trails that once linked the Red River
and Crow Wing Settlements in the 1800s. Imagine the creak of wooden carts, the
steady pace of oxen, and the bustling trade of goods that once defined this
corridor. Today, the trail has transformed into a recreational haven, offering
a peaceful escape for hikers, cyclists, snowshoers, and horseback riders.
Whether you’re tracing the footsteps of history or simply soaking in the serene
Manitoba landscapes, the Crow Wing Trail is a reminder of how the past and
present can coexist in harmony.
Yet,
while trails like this invite people of all backgrounds to explore and connect
with nature, the world of cycling—especially racing—can sometimes feel far less
inclusive. Racing bikes, while offering countless benefits, can often feel
unwelcoming to beginners, women, and racial minorities. The barriers to entry
are significant, starting with the high cost of quality bikes and gear, which
can make the sport seem accessible only to those with deep pockets. The sheer
variety of specialized equipment—from different types of bikes to a dizzying
array of accessories—can also feel overwhelming and intimidating to those just
starting out.
Then
there’s the steep learning curve. For newcomers, terms like
"derailleurs" and "cassette" might as well be a foreign
language, and the fear of not knowing how to fix a flat tire or make basic
adjustments can be enough to discourage anyone from diving in.
And
while I’m not the first to point this out, the cycling community itself can
sometimes feel exclusive. Group rides and races are often dominated by seasoned
cyclists who’ve been in the sport for years, leaving beginners feeling out of
place or too slow to keep up. The technical jargon and competitive atmosphere
can further alienate newcomers, making them feel like they don’t belong.
I
could write an entire blog post (or two) about the other aspects of cycling
culture that create barriers to participation and inclusion. But here’s the
thing: it doesn’t have to be this way. The cycling community has the potential
to be incredibly supportive and inclusive—when it makes the effort to welcome
and educate newcomers. We can do better. By breaking down these barriers,
fostering a culture of encouragement, and making the sport more accessible, we
can ensure that cycling becomes a space where everyone feels they belong. The
joy of riding, racing and bikepacking should be for everyone, and it’s up to us
to make that a reality.
That
said, I can’t emphasize enough how welcoming and supportive the Actif Epica
team was. Race director Dan is not only one of the friendliest people you’ll
ever meet, but he’s also an accomplished ultra-distance racer himself, which
adds a layer of authenticity to the event. The volunteers were equally
amazing—thoughtful, helpful, and genuinely invested in making every racer feel
supported. This was especially meaningful for my ride buddy, as Actif Epica
wasn’t just her first race; it was her first winter race *and* her first
50-kilometer event. Talk about diving into the deep end!
After check-in
and a meaningful land acknowledgment, the 50-kilometer racers gathered outside
the Sugar Shack for final instructions. I reminded my ride buddy to turn on her
GPS, wished fellow racers good luck, and positioned myself near the front of
the pack, ready for the challenge ahead.
It’s worth
emphasizing that land acknowledgments before a bike race are not just a
formality—they are a meaningful act of recognition and respect that holds
significance for everyone involved. These acknowledgments honor the Indigenous
peoples whose lands the event takes place on, serving as a powerful reminder of
the historical and ongoing injustices faced by Indigenous communities. They
also promote awareness and appreciation for their cultures, traditions, and
enduring connection to the land.
As we stood
there, poised to begin, the acknowledgment lingered in the air, grounding the
event in a deeper sense of purpose and responsibility. It was a reminder that
the land beneath our tires carries stories far older than the race itself, and
that our journey forward is not just about speed or competition, but also about
respect, awareness, and connection.
By
acknowledging the traditional custodians of the land, organizers and
participants alike demonstrate a collective commitment to reconciliation and
building positive, respectful relationships with Indigenous peoples. This
practice fosters inclusivity and respect, underscoring that the land on which
the race is conducted has a deep, rich history that long predates the event
itself.
Land
acknowledgments also have the power to inspire important conversations about
Indigenous rights and encourage participants to educate themselves about the
original inhabitants of the land. They remind us that we all share a
responsibility to honor and uphold the legacy of those who came before us. This
isn’t just the duty of event organizers—it’s a responsibility that falls on
every participant, spectator, and supporter. By embracing this practice, we
collectively contribute to a culture of respect, awareness, and reconciliation,
ensuring that the spirit of inclusivity extends beyond the race and into our
everyday lives.
In short, land
acknowledgments are more than words—they are a call to action for everyone to
recognize, respect, and honor the Indigenous peoples whose lands we live, work,
and play on. It’s a shared responsibility that enriches our understanding of
the past and helps shape a more inclusive and equitable future.
With that in
mind, the countdown began, and we were off.
The
race kicks off along a dike trail for several kilometers before looping back
into town on the main road. Like any off-road race, it’s your responsibility to
know the course, understand its challenges, and navigate it safely. Given this understanding, my ride buddy and I had scouted the route a few days earlier.
Pre-riding a course offers so many advantages: it helps you familiarize
yourself with the terrain, identify tricky sections, and mentally prepare for
what’s ahead. Even though I’d raced on the Crow Wing Trail before, I needed to
get reacquainted with the layout, especially the one technical section that
could make or break the race.
But
beyond the practical benefits, pre-riding boosts confidence—something that’s
invaluable, especially for beginners. There’s nothing worse than feeling lost
mid-race, having to backtrack, or worse, abandoning the race altogether because
you took a wrong turn. A little preparation goes a long way in ensuring you’re
ready to tackle whatever the trail throws at you.
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| Garmin Failed Me! |
Of
course, no matter how prepared you think you are, sometimes luck has other
plans. Case in point: I had meticulously installed and tested the GPS map on my
Garmin Edge cycling computer, confident it would guide me through the course
without a hitch. But wouldn’t you know it? Right after the start, my GPS
failed. Completely. Out of nowhere. It was one of those moments where all you
can do is laugh—because what are the odds? You prep for every possible
scenario, and then life hands you the lowest card in the deck.
After
regaining my composure, I surged to the front of the pack, determined to stay
on course. But in a twist of irony, I promptly led the entire group astray.
Like lemmings, they followed, and for a brief moment, I was the accidental tour
guide of a very confused group of racers. This would set the pattern for the
entire race. I would regain the lead, only to take another wrong turn and find
myself alone, retracing the route. It was a humbling reminder that even the
best intentions can go awry, and sometimes, the only way forward is to laugh at
your mistakes and keep pedaling.
And
if there’s one place where adaptability is essential, it’s racing in the
prairies. Racing a bike in the prairies is a uniquely rewarding experience,
blending the breathtaking vastness of open landscapes with the unpredictable
challenges of ever-changing conditions. The prairies are defined by their flat
to gently rolling terrain, endless horizons, and skies that stretch as far as
the eye can see. But the real star of the show? The wind.
Out
here, we lovingly call the wind our "mountains." With few natural
barriers to slow it down, the prairie wind can be both a cyclist’s greatest
ally and their fiercest adversary. One moment, it’s at your back, gifting you
with free speed. The next, it’s a relentless wall of resistance, testing your
endurance and willpower with every pedal stroke. Prairie racing isn’t just
about battling the elements; it’s about embracing them, adapting to them, and
finding beauty in the struggle.
The 2024
version of Actif Epica began on a punishingly windy day in February, with the
only saving grace being the unseasonably warm weather. My GPS had failed at the
start, and each time I veered off course, I was forced to push back against the
headwind to regain lost ground. So, when one of the other 50K participants
bridged up to me 30 minutes into the race, I welcomed his offer to work
together. Drafting and collaborating with other cyclists isn’t just a
tactic—it’s a necessity. In the face of an unyielding wall of wind, teamwork
becomes the key to conserving energy and maintaining momentum. It’s a powerful
reminder that, even in a sport often focused on individual performance, there’s
strength in unity. Together, we pushed forward, proving that sometimes the
greatest victories come from shared effort and resilience.
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| Race On! |
The idea of working together against the relentless wind of Actif Epica gave me hope, but it couldn’t entirely silence the nagging doubts I’d carried into the race. Normally, I approach races with meticulous preparation—months of targeted training, a clear understanding of my limits, and specific performance goals taped to my top tube for reference. This time, however, Actif Epica was a last-minute decision, a leap into the unknown with little more than grit and a prayer to carry me through. My fitness was a question mark, and the uncertainty gnawed at me. Would I even finish? My imagination ran wild with worst-case scenarios: post-holing through snowdrifts on a fat bike weighed down by 65 pounds of gear, or grinding through endless miles of mud, my gravel bike caked in filth as I scraped away at it in frustration.
As it turned out, neither nightmare
materialized. Luck—or perhaps the cycling gods—smiled on me. The 50K racers
started early enough that the dirt roads held firm for most of my race, only
beginning to soften as I made my final push to the finish line. But not
everyone was so fortunate. Behind me, my ride buddy faced a different story. By
the time she reached the melting stretches, the roads had turned into a sticky,
soul-crushing quagmire. Many were forced to dismount, trudging along the
roadside with bikes so clogged with mud they refused to roll.
It’s
moments like these that remind you how much bike racing is a game of
variables—conditions, preparation, and yes, even luck. But there’s another
layer to it, one that’s less about external factors and more about the rider
themselves. Bike racing, like any sport, has its own language, its own secrets.
Take *form*, for instance. To the uninitiated, it might sound vague, but to a
cyclist, it’s everything. Form is the holy grail of fitness—a delicate alchemy
of physical strength, endurance, and mental sharpness. When you’re in top form,
you feel invincible, capable of slicing through headwinds, conquering climbs,
and pushing your limits with a kind of effortless grace. But when it’s missing,
every pedal stroke feels like a battle. And on that day, as I wrestled with my
own doubts and the elements, I couldn’t help but wonder: did I have enough form
to pull this off?
There
was only one way to find out. So I got as aero as I could, dialed the pace up
to suffer, told my legs to shut up, and got down to the business of racing my
bike.








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